A year ago, my family and I faced a time of loss and I went through a dark time in my life. Everything started after suffering a miscarriage. I was devastated because this baby would be our second treasure in our family. I really love big families, and losing this baby broke my heart. After this loss, like many women that face this situation, I fell into a deep depression. Nothing was important to me anymore. I was in darkness and didn’t see an end in sight. I felt like I was in a black hole. I kept wondering why this happened to me and my family. My husband and I weren’t ready for a situation like this. We didn’t know how to handle this kind of sadness. We didn’t know how to face it, so we began to distance ourselves from each other, and we started having many problems in our marriage.
We were constantly having fights in our marriage, and the situation got worse and worse. Every day we talked about getting a divorce. The depression was destroying my life, my family and my marriage. I was desperate and asked God to come and help me to overcome this wilderness. I remember one Godly girlfriend and her husband prayed for me one day, and I can say that day God set me free from the depression, but I was still dealing with many issues. One day at The Bay Church I saw a flyer for a women’s event called PROPEL and I decided to go. From the moment I walked in, I was greeted with a happy face and a warm welcome that made me feel loved. I remember on that day many women at my table were talking about their miscarriages too, and how God helps them to recover from the pain.
I cried and thanked God because I was sure that He put all these women around me to tell me that I was not alone, that He was with me in that time of sadness and suffering. After that day I started coming to all women meetings and events, and everything that I learned I decided to put it into practice in my own life. I learned about recovering from negative situations, how to be a woman with passion, and how to communicate with my husband with God’s guidance. I began to change my attitude towards my husband and everything changed. We started seeing each other differently. We fell in love again and decided to give our marriage another chance.
Now, in our 10 years of marriage, we are experiencing the most beautiful and wonderful time in our lives. After going through growth and healing, I became part of the small group leader’s community. I am now leading a Spanish Women group in my house, and I have been helping other women learn and grow in their faith. Because as followers of Jesus Christ I know that I am called to lead people to Him, and I realize there are many women out there searching for help. I am very happy to have the opportunity to work with women, and I can say God is merciful and a loving God.